And quite frankly, I'm glad it's over.
I'm ready to vindicate myself from all that I've done, all the things and people I've become attached to.
I'm ready to start over again.
This isn't to say I'm over with all my friends. They all still mean the world to me, and they've put a human face to all I've hated throughout my life...and they've helped me to not judge. They've helped me love the world a little bit more...and I love them more than anything. 2009 has been one of the rockiest years of my life so far, and I'd like all my friends to know that they were the cause and the cure. I've gone through debilitating pain, emotional and physical, due to all the stress that people have put me through, and it turns out that they were the ones to make me smile again. This is the contradiction of life, and it is something everyone goes through. Life is a contradiction in itself. I want my friends to know that I love them and I'll be by their sides forever.

But I am content in the fact that I have made no enemies. *grin*
That's not what I'm here for.
And, if people seem to think that I am an enemy to them, then they have made an enemy out of me. It was not of my doing at all.

I'm ready to vindicate myself. I'm done with petty drama, I'm done with childish notions that slow me down.
I'm ready to graduate, I'm ready to break out, and I'm ready to grow up.


"I've got an answer.
I'm going to fly away.
What have I got to lose?
Will you come see me
Thursdays and Saturdays?
What have you got to lose?"
-Stephen Stills